Saturday, April 19, 2008
goin' back
during my journey from rayenda to dhaka, the bus is loaded into a ferry on river padma and we float towards dhaka for 3 hours. there's water all around and yet, there is an acute shortage of drinking water.
i get acquainted with a photo journalist from bangladesh, akash. amidst talks about issues that bangladesh and he faces in his profession, i get a preview of his work- every single picture is a work of art, it tells a story- silently, eloquently.
it gets me thinking about my experiences in bangladesh. for every country i visit, i decide to register my impressions, how/what will i remember about it, what i take away from it (and they will always be "live" lists)
for bangladesh, i will remember
- my life experiences with an amazing group of people from all over the world, out to make a difference in a forgotten part of this world- my money (and manual labor) will be for hodr!
- a maze of water and land
- children laughing and playing in ponds, rivers while taking their afternoon dip
- questions, questions from everyone, everywhere
- the best milk-tea i have had (with condensed milk)
- palms, coconut trees, purple flowers (hyacinths?)
- precarious bridges of all kinds - bamboo, log, concrete slab
- life moving at a snail's pace (and internet connections, too)- without a tv, fan, car, refrigerator- things i have taken for granted
- but most of all, i will remember the generosity, humility, love and kindness of the people of bangladesh- from the little girl, who insisted on me having the last bit of her cookie to mahmud, who invited me to spend new years with his family to saleem and shahjahan, who fed their guests more food than they could probably afford.
- my hodr experience - which deserves another blog post
my most memorable moments
- the celebration at rasulpur bazar
- sitting on the sidelines and watching the laughter, when we opened the playground
- the two hours i spent in the village, distributing photos
i end with a poem by walt whitman that i read recently
location and times, what is it in me that meets them all, whenever and wherever, and makes me, at home?
forms, colors, densities, odors- what is it in me that corresponds with them?
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
all shook up
- worked 6 days a week
- had no alcohol
- had 6 ice-cream bars (a lot for me)
- had about 5 sodas (sodas are a bi-annual event normally)
- had lots and lots of samosas
- had jalebis!
- ate a huge amount of rice
- lost an hour of my life crossing international boundaries ( how i hate going west to east)
the amount of sugar in my system is probably the reason for my shocked state or it could be the sudden change from burqa-clad women to a scantily clad girl dancing on a stage in the middle of a road covered in foam! i have arrived in bangkok and its new years day in thailand and bangladesh.
after celebrating new years in bangladesh in the morning with mahmud and his family, i arrive in bangkok to everyone waging water (and talc) wars against each other on the streets.
i reach my hotel and its tropical pool. its a completely different world from 24 hours ago, and it was only a 2 hour flight away. i am experiencing withdrawal symptoms right now.
i need some time for reflection.
Monday, April 14, 2008
blue sunday
i head back to rayenda from bagerhat, where temps are touching 100 degrees F. Its a friday, my last day off before i leave on sunday. i sleep the whole day. evening as i am headed to have a quiet meal at the 'Haj' i am mobbed by a group of little girls. one leads me to her aunt, who she promises speaks perfect hindi and she does!
i sit on a chair for an hour, graciously accepting an invitation for tea, while i am questioned by about 25 community members and this time, i have a translator at hand! one observes, the volunteers wear dirty clothes. and yes, we sure do :)
of course, everyone is being mobbed these days, more so than normal days, for everyone in the village wants an invitation to the goodbye party(or picnic as it was being called) on the 12th. the party itself was a short, yet wonderful affair with short speeches, a short entertainment program including a rock star performance by alan and a slideshow of 200 photos as the highlight. all women volunteers looked stunning in salwaar kameez or saris while men looked sharp in bangladeshi caps and kurtas (embroided shirts).
the last one month, every morning, i get up, dig into an 'any mountain' plastic shopping bag nailed to my bedpost, and get ready for work. the attire is a paint and grime ridden HODR t-shirt, a worn pair of pants, a red bandana and the coveted HODR cap. on the heavy lumber days, i wear my running shoes , otherwise i wear tevas. yesterday, i get up and for the first time, wear a salwaar kameez. i am ready to board the bus to dhaka.
its funny how a place you share with 20 people from around the world, with a bunk bed and 4 sq. feet of shelf space for your personal space, can feel like home. space seems so inconsequential and yet, i search for a roomier apartment every time.
i break down as i give marc a goodbye hug. 'its like i am leaving home', i say. 'hope you will find another home during your travels', he says and wishes me good luck. a hug to stef, and i leave, scared to look back.
i have said goodbye once too often now, but it hits me every time still.
i am human- still and for that, i am thankful.
all of my memories
two hours in the village, surrounded by a mob of 50 people, children and adults screaming 'photo, photo', me occasionally screaming 'thaama'(stop!)- made me realize how precious photos are to everyone here. its a snapshot at a moment in time, when they are so thrilled by foreigners taking their pictures with fancy cameras instead of mobile phones!
so, i decide to go a bit farther with my photos as well. there is no photo studio in rayenda with digital photo printing capabilities, the closest is in bagerhat, a 2 hour bus ride away. on a sultry afternoon, i get on a bus to bagerhat. the mundane bus ride becomes interesting as the old man seated next to me adopts me. Shahjahan is the kindest, gentlest soul i met in bangladesh. having watched us toil in the sun in the lumber yard, he has the deepest respect for the volunteers.
an hour after reaching bagerhat, and a coffee and snacks later, i have the photos in hand. mission accomplished. now i will proudly adorn my flickr portfolio with those pictures!
Friday, April 4, 2008
the concert for bangladesh
and finally i am in my bunk bed listening to birdsongs and gheckos. its a friday, and i spent half of it in a cha shop having about 6 cups of tea and samosas and lunch and discussing SE asia. inspite of the rain, i am determined to find postcards/something to mail today.
but before that, its time to recount the events of the last few days.
sunday morning, we load up the lumber for the playground, our supplies of biscuits, fruit and toilet paper and we take a 45 minute "van/bhen" ride to rasulpur bazar.
its a quiet little sleepy village with a row of shops (fondly called the strip mall), most of which were almost always closed! after a quick tour of the cyclone shelter, where we will be staying, and the pond, where we will be bathing, and the cha-shop where we will be drinking a lot of tea, we start work for the day.
at 5, we have an introductions/qa session with the village folks in the school yard. i get an applause because i am indian!
as evening sets in, from the best seats in the house (elevated cyclone shelter), we watch the village men play volleyball and children frisbee and badminton till dark.
after dinner and after setting up our mosquito nets on the terrace, we decide to take a stroll in the village bazar. the first stop is a cha-shop, where we introduce ourselves again at the insistence of everyone around us. after several such introductions, we return to our terrace to take in the quiet of the village.
it turns out to be a wonderful place to sleep or to lie awake and do star-gazing, as i discover later. at about 2 in the morning, a woman, who lives below the shelter, starts talking loudly to herself. gradually, the monologue turn into a mournful wail. surreal, and very disturbing- a cry in the middle of a dark night perhaps remembering lost souls. i lie awake in my bed the entire night, wishing i could understand her.
the next morning, zameel, our translator, tells us that she mourns the loss of her family in the cyclone.
the village is a delight to work in, the community helps in every way possible, the cha-shop is right on our way back home. every two hours i go for 2 cups of tea.
every day i have someone come up to me to tell me how glad they are to have me there and that i am their "most favorite" because i am one of them. kids call me aapa (big sister), adults call me sister. i am in shock- i wasn't sure how a brown woman planing wood and hammering nails and painting would be received in a muslim country and the response has moved me.
tonight, its movie night at the theatre that we discovered the previous night. its a small room (15'X 20'X 5'), with 2 benches against the walls and planks on the floor to squat. there were about 50 of us in that room watching a bangla movie on about a 28" tv. we take in the cigarette smoke and heat for about 45 minutes before heading back.
the next day- our third- its long and tiring. in the evening, we go for our usual tea routine. our tea-break turns into a face-off- with bohemian rhapsody, followed by bangla songs, performed by ben on our side and amazing singers from the village, on theirs! after 2 hours of singing songs we don't know the words to, we have another great evening under the stars.
our last day is a half-day, to be followed by hand-painting by the school kids and then opening of the playground. the eight of us do the customary 5 minutes of posing on the playground, before we get down to leading bewildered kids to put their handprints (for "hands-on") on the playground. and then it was open to all..
it was an emotionally charged one hour, to say the least. we sit on the sidelines and watch as 12 kids jump on the tire swing, 15 on a see-saw/teeter-totter, an endless lines form for the swings, the rope bridge is a trampoline.
it is impossible to capture the joy, the laughter, those smiles ( but i try, nevertheless) a little girl walks up to me to say "thank you" and walks away.
someone walks up to me and offers to take us to the sunderbans. another invites us to play volleyball, and yet another invites us for another song competition in the evening.
after a wonderful game of volleyball with the locals, we retire to have a bath followed by dinner. it has been an incredibly moving day- little did we know what is going to follow this!
after a brief post-dinner rest, we head to the cha-shop as promised. the locals wait patiently, for us to finish and then lead us to the center of the village.
the entire village has come together, including the women and children. there are about 300 of them.. there is a stringed instrument, singers- adults and children on floor mats. they have been waiting for us for an hour, if only we knew. we are made to sit on a bench, tea is served and the program begins.
there are beautiful bangla songs, some hindi songs. the audience requests a hindi song and i oblige- with about 5 minutes of kal ho na ho- forgetting the first verse after 2 lines :) all of us sing amazing grace and then ben, always the entertainer steps up to do a funny song and dance routine. more joy, more laughter, more smiles ..
the 2 hour program ends with another hindi song and an emotional farewell speech and all of us too speechless to say anything.
Saturday, March 29, 2008
your body is a wonderland!
the volunteers step out of the classroom, and lie down on the ground under the stars. the women approach warily, then touch their noses and their arms.
the last few days, i have been to the independence day celebration function (march 26), saleem's(our carpenter) place for lunch/dinner, abul's (our landlord) place for lunch, a tailor to get a salwaar kameez with hana (our landlord's wife), a school ceremony held in honor of hodr (they built the school)
at the independence day celebration, a woman with an amazing voice from the local NGO presents a narrative using a scroll, none of which we understand at the time. the sight of camels with dead people, village gatherings, aeroplanes etc. didn't make much sense until someone explains that bangladesh children are smuggled into the middle east to be camel jockeys for camel races there, which seem to be a sport for the rich and which also happens to be responsible for quite a number of deaths. the program ends with a fabulous solo performance by asha, our landlord's daughter.
it's been a very social couple of days, tomorrow morning i am off to a safari to build a playground finally.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
losing their religion..
the entire village, including children as little as 5, helps us unload the lumber we had on our trawler. ben and louisa play with the kids and are, subsequently, the pied pipers.
after a quick lunch, its back to work again. we start painting wood, which is, by far, my favorite thing to do (besides using the hand planer ;) after about 2 hours of painting and scrubbing wood, i am back on the trawler to go back "home" (bari) with ben, louisa and rajeeb, our landlord's son, also our translator.
an hour into the ride, the trawler stops and i am jolted up from my nap. in the middle of nowhere, we are out of fuel! so we get off, walk through the mud, and village roads, for a good half hour, before stopping at a roadside stall to have a drink and snacks, while rajeeb secures two motorbikes to get us back home. half an hour later, we are back home having dinner and retiring for the night after what seemed like a long day!
marc, our operations director, landed up in a fairly remote village one hot afternoon, 3 days ago. people in the school seemed exceptionally withdrawn and wary of him. later he finds out from rajeeb that they thought he was there to give them injections to convert them to Christianity.
it startles me, confuses me, humbles me, amuses me and yet saddens me but most of all, it makes me be thankful for my life,
on one playground install, someone asked us what we were there for. someone tried explaining to build a playground. how do you explain what a playground is to someone who has never been outside their village, doesn't have tv or a computer or books to even imagine what a see-saw/teeter-totter or a swing is. playground to them is the same ground they sleep on, work on and walk on. there's no separate space to play.
a simple thing such as a frisbee, a soft toy amuses the entire village for a few hours, i can only imagine what the sight of a colorful playground will.
i feel particularly blessed and fortunate to have seen two different worlds and to have grown in both of them, not only in age but life experiences.
for someone who was born and raised in a third world country, and then migrated to the US, it gives me a wider perspective to things. but at the same time, it puts me in the space in between. i don't fit in in either place completely..
there is such a huge world out there and yet, most of us might never know about it. there's still so much unseen and untold - not necessarily good or bad but just different.. one lifetime can certainly not be enough.
Saturday, March 22, 2008
visions
let me tell you about safaris today.
pg = playground
A safari is a group of people qho stay on site for a week of the playground build rather than come back "home" every day. it's as exciting as a regular safari, except the "animals" are the group themselves. its normally in some remote village. so there are eyes watching them every moment in time, waking or not, through windows.
one left yesterday for pg#3 and they will be staying in a cyclone shelter. one leaves tomorrow for pg#4 and they will be staying on the school premises across from the sunderbans. unfortunately, i won't be going to either because i am the official "laura", the wood planer and i will be busy planing wood for #5
we have a day off today. we completed finishing wood for playground #4 by 3 PM yesterday.
i visited a school yesterday to attend a song and dance program. i ended up being in the first row among the teachers and other guests of honor. not wanting to steal the spotlight from the contestants, i decided to not take out my camera. they wanted me to sing a song in hindi, but i sneaked out!
the last two nights, i was fast asleep by 9:30 while reading Sightseeing. so today, i get up bright and early and eat some "chana choor" an unhealthy snack with nescafe instant coffee, while browsing through the laos, cambodia, vietnam lonely planet.
n. will be in laos on may 19th, so i have a month to get there from bangkok. i plan to spend a month in cambodia, including one week in a beach town, doing nothing.
this morning i went to the pg#3, with stef and david. i wear my good non-work clothes and armed with a day pack walk towards the bus stand.
we hire motorbikes for 40 takas/person to the site. stef and i get on one with a guy driving it and david gets on another. it was a bumpy half an hour ride on village roads. we finally get there to find a great living space in a cyclone shelter, and a quieter, mellow crowd of kids and elders. the crew was already working hard at painting and digging holes.
after a quick tea break, we head back to the village where we hire a "van"/bhen, a cycle rickshaw with a flat bed, to take us to the main bazar. from here, amidst more stares and speculations, we walk towards the school, where pg#1 was built.
when we get there, the playground is empty. stef jumps on a swing while i take photos of children scrambling to get the remaining swings and lily pads. one makes faces at me and yells, "bangladesh zindabad". i say the same in return.
a mundane place as a playground is capable of bringing of so much joy in someone's life - it is evident in their laughter. it makes me think how blessed i have been in my life.
the principal comes out, pulls the ear of two students playing in the playground and invites us over for tea. we gently refuse and head back.
stef stops by to pay for cement and labor. a crowd gathers around the shop where we sit, while stef argues with the shopkeeper for he charged more than he promised. a man approaches speaking hindi and asking me what the confusion is about. the issue is settled, we head over to the bus stand to board the bus for rayenda.
we climb to the top of the bus, and two young men follow, taking pictures with their phones. sometimes we must pay for all the photos we take in their villages. we sit quietly peeling oranges.
a bird's eye view of the area is exhilarating. a gentle breeze blows as the bus winds through the village roads, and we munch on grapes, while talking about the bay area and ducking tree branches. we reach home to two children watching an owl resting on a bicycle.
it was a perfect outing and now its a perfect time for a nap! i love my days off!
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
hard day's night(s)
on my way to paanch raaste to buy water, a little girl came up to me and said "you and us - same, same". i think, by now, the entire village knows my name, age, marital status, occupation, siblings, siblings occupation, father's name, my state in india, where i live, where my siblings live- all of us are still asked the same questions everyday, multiple times a day.. and i have been here only 4 days, the others have been here for months!
i also have 2 thai fisherman's pants as work pants - so good to have tailors who sew this stuff in one day for 240 taka (less than $4. 1$=68.05 taka)
i might be staying a bit longer than i had originally planned (march 26th). the project was extended till april 19th due to a grant from savethechildren to build playgrounds in 5 schools in neighboring villages- an achievement for hodr. 12th of april is the community party, where the playgrounds, houses etc will be formally handed over to the community, which as per our "status board" is maximum fun and hence the plan for extended stay!
today is movie night and all of the 20 people in the house are on the terrace watching a bond movie or austin powers. and i sit here, uploading ONE picture every time i am online (because i refuse to scale down the size of pics!) . i am going to look into getting my own internet connection in the next few days..
Saturday, March 15, 2008
come together
its 2 pm when the paddleboat reaches massua,. we board a smaller boat to our coastal village from there.
after a boat ride that reminded me of swades, we walk through the streets of rayenda to "hello"s and "what country" and "your name"? everyone in the village is still intrigued by all the outsiders who have descended upon them.
i meet all the volunteers through the course of the day - there's 10 of us in the house right now. 9 volunteers are camping in a school in another village for a week.
we get down to business and do not waste the 2 hours of the work day we have left. so i burn the edges of a nylon rope to be used in playgrounds, and then i do some wood planing.. i am officially the "new laura", replacing her as leaves tomorrow for canada.
i accompany laura into the village market to buy a salwar kameez for this little girl- farzana that laura has fallen in love with. the 15 minutes of fame was a myth. we are mobbed every place we go, there is a crowd following us around town. strangers come up to me and start talking in bangla. the half hour passes by soon enough.
dinner comes with a team meeting with updates on the strategy of how to maximize work that we can do in the upcoming days.
i foresee laborious days ahead, which entail taking local boats into other villages and lots of wood planing. i guess, the trails will remain undiscovered for now or else they will be discovered by more than just me (the crowd follows)
ekla chaalo (walk alone..)
13th march
the trip to the ghats is quite a ride. no autorickshaw/ tuktuk wants to go there, its old dhaka and yes, it is old! i constantly remind myself to not whisper "Hi" to every person I make eye contact with.
the boat is not leaving today, so another day in dhaka for me.
i come back and read to tahsin, mahmud's 4 year old, for the next 2 hours. i have to strain my mind to remember, starfish, sea-horse, even crocodile.. it must be age.
14th march
i wake up at 1:30 AM after sleeping through the entire evening, read for a few hours and then go back to sleep. seems like I am catching up on the last few years of sleep and reading.
its a friday, and bangladesh's weekend has begun. being a muslim country, friday and saturday constitute the weekend in bangladesh.
breakfast is followed by cha (tea) and mahmud tosses a newspaper my way, saying cha is incomplete without one.. that is a perfect cup of tea.
still not willing to let go of the real world, i head to the internet cafe down the street. i guess, i will be catching up on my patience too :)
the ride back is in a double-decker bus, so i make myself comfortable on the last seat and for the first time in bangladesh, take out my camera. hello, dhaka!
its a special lunch day - with fried fish, beef curry, pumpkin vegetable, potato vegetable and gourd vegetable- only in an indian buffet in sunnyvale have I had so many choices (without the beef, of course)! mahmud and ruma are wonderful hosts and very warm and generous people. ruma quickly packs up rotis and vegetables before we leave for the docks.
the boat to rayenda is not leaving today as well. so mahmud suggests taking the rocket - a historic paddleboat which goes till massua and then you take a small boat (trawler) into rayenda.
i have my 15 minutes of fame right there, standing at the ghat while waiting for the rocket. people stop and stare and then just stop. i am one of them and yet not. confusing perhaps?
i start taking photos, of the place and people around me. i see smiles through the lens and more smiles and then more people. a young man asks me to take a picture of a toothless old man, i oblige and then show him his photo. he waves his aging hands and grins. soon, the mysticism around this flashing device and me is lost - i am one of them. the crowd disperses, some lurk around.
the cabin is 1500 takas, but well worth it. i have a first class sleeper cabin with 2 beds, lots of room to keep the 80 lbs of stuff i am carrying.
he has been working with hodr for a month and took a break for a week. so i ask him a thousand questions about the project, imagining myself there.
i know i am going to trails that are waiting to be discovered, and paanch raaste (five ways) which seems to have some spiritual significance. the journey has really begun..
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
bangla dhun
hmm.. and i wanted to travel to see the world beyond wifi, cable tv, skyscrapers.. so here i am in the perfect place - Dhaka.
coming to bangladesh is like stepping back into time. its somewhat like india as it was before the internet boom, but with less women on the streets.
i walk through an open-air vegetable market, a fish market, bangladeshi bazars, avoiding cycle rickshaws and inviting stares, while following mahmud, of the LP thorn tree bangladesh forum fame to a mega-shoppe where you get everything from hairpins to vacuum cleaners.
internet cafes are few- the cost is less than 30 cents for an hour-- you DO need that hour, its slow! uploading photos on flickr might be a challenge here, i'm sure it will be easier in thailand.
this afternoon, i (try to) go on a 24 hour boat ride to the coastal village where i am volunteering.. the boat runs only when there are enough people, so i might wander the streets of dhaka for another day or two..
more to come..